Ok so there's this jerk..but i love him?!?

when he started telling me he loved me,he had a gf. he broke up with her for me & started telling me he loved me & promised me he would never hurt me cause he never wanted to loose me..haaa bullshit. anyways..before they broke up i found out that he had kissed one of my best friends & this was while he told me he loved me! she didnt know i liked him tho & he had told her not 2 tell anyone & i decided not 2 tell him i knew so that he wouldnt hate on her. so we went 2 a carnival..by this time he was back with his gf..so he was making out with her a bunch right in front of me not caring that it hurt me. eventually they broke up again & r over 4 good.& then i find out he was telling a different bff that he loved her while still telling me! i told him about it & he told me he just did it 2 see if he could trust her not 2 tell me which is jerky 2 do!hes hurt me a ton but i <3 him! why?! but he confuses me cause he even made a huge heart cut right where his <3 is w/ a "c" in it...my initial